It’s that time of year again… the time when you think through who you are, where you’re going and what you want to do moving forward. I realize most of you already did that at the start of 2012 as did I, but for me the navel gazing intensifies in February (by the way, navel gazing is a bad thing).
February is Birthday Month for Scotty Boy. Maybe some of you can identify with the introspection that happens when the calendar begins to turn again. When another year slips by.
In years past, it almost became a place of seasonal depression for me. I would look at that number getting higher and higher and realize most of my dreams had not become reality. As a kid, I dreamt of being married to the love of my life (got that one!!), having a bunch of kids that ran to greet their Dad as he walked through the door from the job he was obviously created to do. Needless to say, I was amazing at all of them.
So each year, I would go through the checklist. Love of a lifetime, check. Kids. Nope. Job. Sometimes. Job that I was created to do. What the heck is that anyway? Definitely can’t check that one until I know what I want to be when I grow up.
It’s silly to think that way because I am so blessed. What better way to throw my potential to succeed into the crapper than to sit around thinking about what I haven’t accomplished. There are obviously things that need tweaking in my life and self evaluation is not always a bad thing, but I have an amazing life. Nothing to complain about… well, nothing I should be complaining about anyway.
I turned 40 yesterday… yup, the big 4-0. In years past, this would have been a real bummer, but I gotta’ tell you things are different this year. I’m looking forward to my 40′s and my 50′s, 60′s, 70′s and maybe even my 80′s.
Life is full of possibilities. There are so many wonderful things that God has in store for me (and for you too!).
Something has changed for me: I’m finally realizing how blessed I am and that I don’t need to care about what other people think of me anymore (hard habit to break). My wife loves me and God loves me. That is enough.
Understanding that at 40 is the icing on an amazing Birthday Cake.